Today (this morning) I had a long talk with myself in my head. A long long talk. About how now I have to buck up my studies real hard and why I have to go through all my maths and sciences from chapter1 all over again. I won't bore you with the whole thing but just know that it roughly took all morning before I reached school. (an hour plus) So I was like having a good attitude, go to school look through my maths homework and accidentally not listen to teacher because I was worrying my results. Ironic. I worry about my results but because of that am not listening to teacher. So anyway, teacher set us homework. And like fifteen minutes of my talking-to-myself thing was undone just like that. So I had another talk with myself. Took a long long time. So just imagine. For about the whole day whenever the teacher was not talking I was talking myself to death. Then I went home very unhappy about who-knows-what. I don't even know what upset me. Then I took out my chinese homework. Let me tell you that the whole days's work was unraveled just like that. POOF into thin AIR. I looked at the zuo ye and went "Oh man I can't do this..." And then that was it. POOF. I just looked at it like the pathetic person I am and then wonder what I could have done with all the time I spent talking to myself since now it was all wasted and gone down the drain. I tried. I did try. I attempted a few questions. With the aid of textbook. And then you know what? I have decided that I could not just drop my resolution like that. What kind of person was I anyway? I went to myself, "what in the world am i doing to myself?" I don't want to be the sort of wimp who goes around moaning to people about their problems and not do anything about it myself. It's irritating. Annoying. Distracting. And you are rubbing your bad influence over people around you. So. So. So I pack up my chinese stuff (wth i ask smone tmrw) and out comes my maths homework. Stare at it awhile. Then decided to try. And even though I could not come up with any form of a worthy working, I got the answer! (!!!!!!!) I checked the back and I was right!! So I did a few more until I came to those that I didn't know how to do. I'd ask someone tomorrow. And I am happy. I did not just drop myself like that. I'm happy that I didn't. From now on I have to work hard. On my maths. And everything else. Well Chinese... Okok, fine. I'll work on it. That does not mean I will earn interest in it. Although I will try. HAHA I didn't drop myself!! TAKE THAT!! =D =D =D
