Friday, June 30, 2006

-Blooowwww-

If you want to fish, find something more interesting that just fish. Just fish is kinda boring. You gotta dig out ALL those old toys from the cupboard, drawers, under the bed, where ever. And THEN you fish.

10 Reasons to Know you are Over Spending

#10 -- You find that you have been eating in Pizza Hut for two days in a week
# 9 -- You have no money to raid Chameleon
# 8 -- You find that your money consists of 11 5-cent coins
# 7 -- You buy 2 black clips from Chameleon, for 2 days, each day
# 6 -- You blew $30 on TimeZone
# 5 -- Killing dinosaurs has become a great past time
# 4 -- Hunting down exclusive members of the undead have become great too
# 3 -- You think that blowing $30 in TimeZone ($10 per person) is not alot
# 2 -- You're already wondering when's the next time you're having pizza again

#1 -- You've got no money to buy knick-knacks!! Imagine living in a world with NO decorative stuff, no dreamcatcher on the window, no cute stuff littering your table...



I really am overspending, aren't I?


| so spoken! @ 10:17 PM|

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Monday, June 26, 2006

-Post #111-

Post #111

And I have just noticed that my blog does not have an "Archives" or "History" button. Murmer murmer. (Why didn't anyone tell me? Fine, this goes down in your 'conduct' file. Snap, I'm just talking like my teacher now.) Soooo while I try to get one...

Red Alert: This is the #111st post! First hundred and first post, or does it go one hundred and first post? Well, whichever it is, right now it sounds just about as good as the other. I wonder when it will hit 200... And whether or not I have an Archive button then. I better do.

Anyway I realized I have changed alot since P6, and I don't think I like the changes very much.

For one thing, I am starting to leave my homework till late. As in, last minute work. And bernice doesn't (didn't!) do last minute work! The latest work I leave is... Let's say the dateline is Friday. I will (100% WILL!) complete it on Thursday, or earlier. Now? Let's just say sometimes there is time enough on Friday morning, or Friday's recess, or maybe I will just pass up my work late. [caps lock here please]: WHAT KIND OF BLACK HOLE HAVE I FALLEN INTO?!

And maybe my results weren't the best... Who am I kidding? They slipped. And so it's time to study. And where's 2004 ME when I need her? Where's she gone? Where's the one who will pass off lunch with her friends just so she can go home and hit the books?! Where's the stupid geeky little girl who wouldn't bat an eyelid to the word 'cinema' and 'movie' (unless it's an interesting show. and shows seldom interest me.)?! Where's the original me? Because I don't like the (/drip sacarsm here please: supposedly) new and improved me.

Where is the girl who would go home and actually pack her file (something I haven't done since p6) and actually remove the crumpled bits of paper and smoothen them out? And where has the time gone? I remembered I used to really study (not the crap I do nowadays), as in, with the table lamp and files, and assesment books, and dictionaries, the works. So what went awry these 2 years?

Okay, okay, I admit I was much better off in p6 than I am now. And yes, I think I was being a good little girl in p6. But not now. So. Makeover time. And I'm not talking about rebonded hair and blue eyeshadow.

It's time to take out my assesment books, time to cut off ALL my appointments. Time to get a grip on my homework.

I just hope 2004 me will come back soon.
I'm going to try my best.


(But anyway....)




HELP! I changed and I DON'T LIKE IT!


| so spoken! @ 7:38 PM|

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Saturday, June 24, 2006

-QUESTION! : Do fairytales exist?-

QUESTION.
Do Fairytales Exist?
This topic has been discussed at great lengths with TengPing, so it's really thanks to her that this post has made it this long. =)

Have you ever wondered why:
♣ things sometimes never go your way
♣ the world isn't a fair place
♣ people quarrel
♣ disasters occur
♣ sometimes your day is simply screwed up

Would you rather believe that:
• This is part of your fairytale, and that one day you will wake up to find everything more than fine
• Life is no fairytale, no picnic, and fairytales are just fabricated imagination woven into a book
• Fairytales are for children, and if you are not a child, you don't believe in it, and therefore your life is as stagnant as an un-fairytale, reality.


In fairytales, everyone is super skinny, everyone is beautiful and amazing, they have grace, they have charm. And, in the end, they all fall in love, marry their prince, and live in the bliss of happy-ever-after, in the shelter of true love, and in the rains of adoration.

To believe. It's better that way.

However, should children be exposed to what isn't true, and what won't happen, and in the end, what won't come true? Or will it? Will it set them up for disappointment? Should they not be alerted to that fact that the world isn't what it's made up to be, that their little world cannot consist of true love and a happy-ever-after alone? That if they do, they're whole world might crash down on them one day because they don't know and are not aware of the fact that there are bad guys out there who would try to hurt you?

But we love fairytales. Ever since young we do... Even if you do not realise it. Ever since we were born onto this Earth, we loved fairytales. We wanted a happy ever after. Everyone does.

And there was one, in a book, in a matter of pages, held within words if you would just bother to read it. But in the small print, can you not see "Please snap into reality", at the corner at the page?

Because there isn't one. They will have to slowly grow up by themselves and slowly come to terms with that fact that life cannot always go the way you want it to, and that you cannot write your life out on paper. Do notice that I didn't put 'life is no fairytale' anywhere on this page. Every child needs to fall down at least once before they can grow and face reality, and sometimes I wonder if I have fallen down, and if I have realised the difference between fantasy and reality, and if my whole life is a fanatsy, a replica of reality.

It kills me inside to think that I might never know if I have clearly definied what's fantasy and what is my reality, and to think that whatever decision I make now, this year, will affect me very much later on in life, and that it could affect me very much worse... It really kills me inside. What if I make a wrong move down death road?

So. Whenever children are feeling down, they look back on fairytales and they cheer up, and it gives them hope, is that it? Would they want to be told, "Hey, look, I konw this is a stretch for your brain, but fairytales don't come true sometimes,", or, in short and bluntly, "Hey, you. Grow out of your security blanket!".

I don't think they would appreciate it very much, it would just scare them, wouldn't it? So what's better? Tell them, "Hey look, this is the world. This is fantasy. This is reality. Choose which world you want to live in," I think that's a very bad choice because I myself am not sure which category I would pick.

The world? What IS the world? What is fantasy? And the big shocker, what is reality? What is the world you actually live in?

Instead of the boogie man and creepy crawlies under the bed, instead of monsters with sharp teeth and razor claws, should we really be afraid of reality?

All that children (and us, really. you're just pushing reality away if you don't think so) want to do is to pose for photos, look pretty, impress the world, mess with your hair, find new experiences and, in short, find our very own fairytale.

Even when you are looking for that fairytale, you know that not everyone's life can be that amazing fairytale. Everyone finds that out, but somehow everyone is still disappointed when it doesn't work out for them. And why is that? Because we have one life? Because your expectations have been set too high?


Discussion: Princes and Castles

ME:
There is one prince to marry and a hundred thousand civilians, which makes one hundred thousand hopefuls. And all of them are looking for true love if they can't get the Prince. There are one hundred thousand civilians, and they have to look for it themselves, with nobody else's help. What are the chances, exactly?.

TENGPING:
As TengPing points out, there is a prince and a princess in everyone in the world. Even in the Wicked Witch of the East. Even in Kelly Mancuso in The Mediator, even a person which she pointed out, which I never thought had a princess inside her, but yeah. What matters is finding the right prince. Or princess. Notice I do not use the capital P now. No longer a special noun.

You just have to see it. Somehow or other. Even if I think I am completely 100% blind in this matter. If you don't, it's still there, you just have to look for it and open your eyes big. And you don't go looking elsewhere, because true love looks for you, you do not have to go about looking for it, because then it might never come.

ME:
If true love is as easy to find as it sounds, why is the world not filled with loving couples everywhere, and people loving their dogs, and love filling the air, crickets chirping, the works. Why are there still terrorists and the like? Why are they not together with the rest of the world, loving and living happy-ever-after fairytale lives?

If it is that easy to find, wouldn't it be that they look around the corner, find true love, and then settle down into their beautiful lives, and have all hate dissipate?

TENGPING:
They cannot see the love around them.

And to everything you need a contradiction. There's white, then there's black. There's love, then there's hate. There's good, then there's evil. It's the perfect balance. ANd besides if everything was good, love, white, peace, quiet, wouldn't it get boring after sometime?

Fairytales are nice, and besides, if there is no evil witch in SnowWhite, the prince would not have found the princess.


And our Conclusion

You need evil to realise good, you need hate to realise love, you need wrong... to find the right path for you. And fairytales are not just stories passed down, they're really the world, the entire meaning of life, compressed into a few characters, a few people, to make a summary. And this teacher us about life, love, everything you need to know, in fact. Everyone's life is a fairytale, you just have to get past the poison apple, the long long sleep, the decade in the tower, the few years as Cinderella, then you will be picked off and rode into the sunset...


| so spoken! @ 8:34 PM|

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Thursday, June 22, 2006

-woots-

WOOTS my pictures came back from developing!! I have pasted some over the surface of my cupboard door, and the rest went into my photo album. I haven't been posting much lately right?
Well I just found out that my hlidays have been shortened by ONE WEEK. Instead of another week after this, school starts. That is completely new information. And that is why I have been rushing my homework like mad since today. AND it isn't fair. Why is it called the June holidays if it doesn't last all the way to the end of Juuuuneee?! :sobs:
And I have been downloading games for the last week. I wanted to work through my homework slowly during the last week, and spend evenings playing all the games I have downloaded. But, hello? This isn't going to work because my holidays end in 3 days! Once again, :sobs:.


| so spoken! @ 9:10 PM|

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

--

I'm Back!

And I am back with a whole new perspective of life, and the world around me.


Now, was that what you wanted to hear? Good. Now let's get back to me.


| so spoken! @ 5:55 PM|

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Sunday, June 11, 2006

--

#announcement*

``I'm leaving, and I won't be back until... until the 19th. I think that's a Monday? Yeah so... Hope you ppl keep on tagging, and erm... Yeah, I guess that's all I have to say.*__

=)


| so spoken! @ 7:10 PM|

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Friday, June 09, 2006

-BURN-

BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN



[guess what that is? it's my report card. GO,ME]

(sorry for the bluriness... Had to hurry because had to douse the fire in the sink =X)


| so spoken! @ 10:56 PM|

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

-arguments-

Today is a good day for argumentative posts because I am not in a very good mood.
For those who do not want to read berative, manipulative comments by me, you don't have to read. And whatever is written here today will be read at your own risk, and if you are not happy with it, go find someone else to complain to, because I Don't Care.

IDon'tCare#1
If you think you want to insult or say something bad about someone else, should you not dare to look at that person in the eye, or at least say it out loud instead of in a squeaky voice?
Or are your guts just too small and insuffecient for that kind of thing? If you know they are then why the hell do you say it in the first place? Oh, so you want to 'fit in' with the rest of the crowd and insult us just because the in crowd thinks you should.
Where are your own opinions, where are your own bloody guts, if you have any in the first place? If so, do you think they're not pathetic enough already that you have to go insult somebody with your small guts, and then can't even do this properly?
What i think is that, I don't care how much problems or stress you are going through right now, you shouldn't insult others just because the in crowd thinks you should. I've been through my share of stress and whatnot, but hello? Do you really think you should insult people because of a way tiny matter?
What is the IN crowd anyway?
What I'm saying is, some people are plain cowards, and that now I don't care anymore. Go on, go embarass yourselves and see if I care if you come running to me.


IDon'tCare#2
If you want to be with someone, don't you think you should with that someone for at least a few DAYS? Is it even mutual attraction if you don't stay with that person for say, 5 days? No. I don't think so.
Can those jerks out there spare some thought for my friends' feelings, or do they think they're toys and playthings? Well, whatever. Don't those guys know that, in their cases especially, God made man first. And that was their first draft before they encountered PERFECTION. Just in their cases. For the rest of the guys, I don't know, I have nothing against you if you haven't dumped any of my friends in a 5-day-basis.


IDon'tCare#3
I don't care if you own the biggest house in the world. I don't care if you own a one hundred gallon swimming pool. I don't care if you have your own theatre. And now, I don't care that you have been stuck in the gutter.
Why?
Ohh, that's because your trust turned out to be so much easier to sway than everyone thought it would be. So much for trust and believe, huh? In the end nothing turned out of it.
And if you don't respect me, why not tell me straight, instead of saying bad things behind my back? If your trust is so easily swayed, though, I suggest that you keep all your secrets to yourself because who knows, one day I might just use one against you. I'm not a mean person in particular, per se, but if you decide to stab me in the back, does it look like I have any choice other than to twist around and dig your eyes out?
(Graphic much, huh?)
And, right now, so what if you are stuck in a gutter? I gave you two chances and that's it, right? One apparently wasn't enough for you, and two definitely isn't. So yeah, I pretty much gather that things aren't going too well.


**End.
If you don't like what you read, kindly keep it to yourselves.


| so spoken! @ 9:49 PM|

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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

-YAYness-

-Xylian
-Created by ME
-Credits;
*www.stvgr.net/dhf (doll on the hill factory)
*www.over-the-moon.net/dollz (Josie's Dolls)


| so spoken! @ 9:15 PM|

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-no goodbye no more-

*Roll your mouse over the arrows on the left (<<<<) to scroll down =)


I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause
I won't say goodbye anymoreI

tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said
Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice
cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause
I won't say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And my heart is breaking in front of me
She said Goodbye too many times before
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore...


| so spoken! @ 7:57 PM|

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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

-Something I do need-

I turned off my mobile!! Mainly so that when the seniors call and tell me there's rehearsal I won't know. YAYness. It's still off and I won't turn it on until... until... Erm. Why don't we just skip this part for the time being?

Yesterday I dug out my sports skirt, and I was wrong before. My shortest skirt wasn't 27cm, it was 23cm. Geez.

I went to the library yesterday, turned my phone on silent. And how many calls did I miss? Oh, about 4 calls and maybe 3 smses.

Because I went to Timezone with Shuting to shoot dinosaurs and forgot to turn on the sound... I haven't played that game in a loooong time and I still do miss it. Hahha...

Cheers~


| so spoken! @ 4:25 PM|

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

-no thoughts-

(+) positive
(-) negative
go figure.



If I go for Chalet


- I might get to meet Miss Zheng (+)
- I might meet other teachers I might not like (--)
- I will get to barbeque, which I haven't done in a long time (++)
- People might try to talk to me and expect me to talk back (-)
- Meet at 11am, no time for minimelts beforehand (-)
- Going to the beach (++)
- I gotta wear swimming costume (-)
- Probably gonna get sand up my clothes again, if i don't wear swimsuit (-)
- End late after bbq, gotta go home late (--)


If I go CWP


- I get Minimelts (+)
- I can go Gelare (+)
- Can eat waffles (+)
- Pay a visit to Minitoons (+)
- Voodoo Minis (+)
- Rug for my room (+)
- Look around Minibits (+)
- Eat at Pasta Mania (+)
- Go shopping (+/-)
- Waste money (--)


Why do I have a feeling that I am trying to convince myself to go?


And it doesn't seem like it's working either.





So much for trying.





| so spoken! @ 7:50 PM|

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