Saturday, March 31, 2007
-littlest things.-
Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
[Chorus]Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world who could replace you
[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things remind me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
Littlest Things -Lily Allen
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Went to Causeway Point today, got some new jeans, new clothes.
I also realised I have a fear of shop assistants. Not even a little fear either. But an avoid-and-run-awaaaaayy type fear. I can't help it. My instincts scream "RUNNNNN" when one of them come over and demand me to try on something that I look horrible in.
Don't you?
| so spoken! @ 6:32 PM|
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Friday, March 30, 2007
-rantings of a crazy girl.-
Geez, if any other teacher walks in and starts complaining about us being a slow, mei jia jiao tail-end express class, I am going to go to the D&T lab, grab the tiny saw thing and start sawing him/her into tiny little pieces. And then I'll take those little pieces and throw them out the window into the pond for the fishes to eat. I'm dead serious.
I mean, fine, so we're not the sharpest tools in the shed. That doesn't mean we're stupid, or that our 'mother never teach'.
Ohh, and I've never been so misled in my life. I mean, sheesh. You'd think I would have gotten it earlier, but no. I had continued being almost impossibly clueless, and still am. Sometimes I think it's not worth it. Maybe it's better to wipe the slate clean. But if you ever knew how much memories are in that particular slate, and how much they meant, you wouldn't either.
Ohwell.
I still live off your smile.
I still breathe off your presence.
I guess all I'm trying to say is that I still love you.
But then I dont know what the fuck I'm supposed to have done wrong.
it's a mess.
| so spoken! @ 6:52 PM|
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Thursday, March 29, 2007
-life.-
Well. Nothing much happened today.
I swear, if you photocopy one day of my average school life and into 7 pieces, I bet you can hardly see the difference between them all. Except maybe the occasional falling-asleep-during-class and sitting on smelly busses.
Damn, do I need a life.
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shineI've been searching but I just can't see the signs
| so spoken! @ 8:04 PM|
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
-someweird-
Spent one and a half hour sitting in the lecture theatre listening to some person talk about how to look for books in the library. I mean. Seriously. Looking for books.
No wait, correction: I spent one and a half hour in the lecture theatre smsing, doodling, staring at my green bottle of green (lipid-like) globules. Yes, that sounds so much better alrdy.
The teacher had to make a special announcement for me: Please, I don't want illegal immigrants. People not from 3F can you please return to your own classes. Those from 3H return to 3H (3H girl runs off). Please ah. I dont want any illegal immigrants today. Return to your classes.
-muttering from crowd-
-shuffles back to class-
I mean, what else
could I do? I was the only one left who wasn'y in my own class, and even though she didn't mention my name, she knew I wasn't supposed to be there. And if i didn't move back there, I would have gotten hell back in her class.
Damn my class sucks! (no, you guys are nice. whoever it is who comes here and reads this)
Ohh, and I have to hand up my files tomorrow, and yet I haven't even taken them down from the shelve. I'm just gonna grab it tomorrow before I go off. Let's hope I rmbr though.
| so spoken! @ 10:23 PM|
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
-days of the week-
Is there something special about weekends, or something really horrible about weekdays?
I mean, 24, 20, 10, 3?! This. does not make sense.
| so spoken! @ 9:16 PM|
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Monday, March 26, 2007
-would you?-
What guys think about girls 'fessing up:
"I think it's great when a girl tells you how she feels about you. Normally it's up to us guys to make all the running when it comes to relationships so having a girl tell you that she's got feelings for you is cool."
James, 16, Kembangan.
"It's good for a girl to tell you how she feels, if you feel the same way about her. If you don't fancy her, it's pretty embarrassing for both you and her but I don't think many girls would speak up unless they knew they were in with a chance!"
Thomas, 17, Bukit Timah.
"I would love it if a girl told me she liked me. It's a compliment isn't it and everyone likes receiving those. Even if I didn't fancy her, I'd still be pleased, I'd just have to let her down gently!"
Danny, 16, Choa Chu Kang.
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But still, would you?
I know I would probably try one day, but then pass out at the last minute.
| so spoken! @ 7:40 PM|
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
--melts--
If this heat wave keeps up, all that will be left of bernice is a few drops of goo on the floor, my clothes and my eyes. I will be a puddle of glue with eyes. Damn. Out of everything I ever wanted to be, a puddle of goo (with eyes) is definitely not one of them.
Of course, going iceskating helps. Watching a movie helps.
But still. After watching Shutter last night I fell right into sleep. But then I woke up at 3am sweating (I think I had a nightmare, but I can only vaguely rmbr). And then I started being scared. Like, seriously scared. And then I remembered why I never used to watch horror movies.
-melts (into a puddle of goo with eyes)-
the trees are burning!
| so spoken! @ 7:36 PM|
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Friday, March 23, 2007
-bored.-
I have spent a long
long time reading stickman comics and I think my brain just switched off permanently. Shit.
| so spoken! @ 11:23 PM|
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
-waaaayy back-
Wednesday's lesson plan sucks. Who puts maths, social studies, f&n and social studies on the same day any
way? Unless they want us to fall asleep, the lesson plan is highly uneffective.
We start with maths. Which is alrdy a bad start. Then comes chinese, the more... Brain-tugging subject. 2 lessons of social studies, which already induces indignation, fury, irritation, and sleepiness at best. Come 3 lessons of F&N to end the day. In the more literal sense.
Left my 4 file dividers in the artroom. Dammit. Gonna get slaughtered by the teachers tomorrow.
Ohyes, whose brilliant idea was it to collect all files and exercise books on a bleeding weekly/monthly basis. I totally love that guy to bits.--------------------I've been living with a shadow overheadI've been sleeping with a cloud above my bedI've been lonely for so longTrapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams awayJust in case I ever need 'em again somedayI've been setting aside timeTo clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into loveI can't make it through without a way back into loveOh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shineI've been searching but I just don't see the signsI know that it's out thereThere's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some lightNot just somebody just to get me throught the nightI could use some directionAnd I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into loveI can't make it through without a way back into loveAnd if I open my heart againI guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's realOr if anybody feels the way I feelI need inspirationNot just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into loveI can't make it through without a way back into loveAnd if I open my heart to youI'm hoping you'll show me what to doAnd if you help me to start againYou know that I'll be there for you in the end
| so spoken! @ 9:58 PM|
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
-facedown.-
Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy one look puts the rhythm in my hand. Still I'll never understand why you hang around I see what's going down. Cover up with make up in the mirror tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again you cry alone and then he swears he loves you. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect every action in this world will bear a consequence If you wade around forever you will surely drown I see what's going down. I see the way you go and say you're right again, say you're right again heed my lecture Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. Face down in the dirt, she said, this doesn't hurt, she said,I finally had enough.One day she will tell you that she has had enough he's coming round again. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has foundFace down in the dirt, she said, this doesn't hurt, she said,I finally had enough.(I know the stanzas are not properly seperated)
| so spoken! @ 11:49 PM|
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-trendddds;-
My display name:
euu dun lurvbe miiex but nebermiind, ii go tuh euurx place kiick euu.
THEIR display name(S):
u dun lurbe me but y the stewpit sky neber rain
euu dunn lurbe miiex neber minnds, euu mustz wassh miie clothes
u dun lurve me but i kua si bei song
u dun lurve me nvm cause youre just there bai sui
The trends are just getting funnier and crazier all the time(:
| so spoken! @ 11:43 PM|
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
-late2-
() ()
(oo)
( )O
Staying up late at night does things to your brain, really.
| so spoken! @ 1:41 AM|
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
-things you always knew 2-
Things You (Probably) Always Knew
Yet Never Thought Of / Realised #2
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by me1. They are probably more afraid of you than you are of them 2. The world doesn't revolve around you (it's okay to skip lesson more than once, the teacher probably didn't notice) 3. Shrimps' hearts are found in their heads. That should make it easier for them to follow their hearts. 4. Hot penguins and dateless squirells make a huge army. Watch out. 5. Ostriches have never ever attempted to stick their heads in the sand 6. Alcohol prevents worms in your stomach but it's faults in the other parts of the body probably outweigh a few worms chewing away at your stomach walls 7. LUMOS. dang. it still doesn't work. 8. Don't pee in tropical rivers. No, seriously. (There's a parasite that attaches itself... well it really depends on your gender, but whatever it is, you won't want it lodging there. No, really.)9. Yes, everyone just saw that 10. Chemistry is all based on theories. You're studying things that might not even be real. 11. Evening/Night is the MSN peak hour12. Don't bother preparing an excellent speech, half the time nobody listens 13. People really don't care what you wear.14. People really don't look at your hair.15. Alot of pompous people are hypocrites16. People who are forever-cheerful are mostly just depressed17. Don't fall in love too easy, they tend to skelter after awhile18. Sometimes it's better to just forget 19. The movie Primeval rocks.20. There is a 20foot long crocodile, over a hundred years old, alive and wild in Africa21. You know how irritating emoticons are when overly used, yet you still do it22. We aren't all that smart as we think we are23. No, don't put that in your mouth.24. LUMOSLUMOSLUMOS. It was worth a try.25. If you keep thinking about black holes the universe you'll drive yourself crazy I know this is alot more shoddy than the first. My brain can only go this far I suppose.--Ohhhyes finally it ends. My brain hurts.
| so spoken! @ 2:18 PM|
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-things you always knew-
Things You (Probably) Always Knew
Yet Never Thought Of / Realised #1
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by me.1. Shouting Lumos at the light switch will never work, no matter how loud you go.2. People of the opposite sex are not mindreaders, and neither are you. so voice how you feel before it's too late. 3. You intend to live forever4. It's easy to make people smile5. After someone makes you smile a few thousand times it's too late to turn back6. If you make someone smile a few thousand times it's too late for them to turn back either7. You probably lost one of the few people who cared because you were insensitive (face it)8. Trees have less issues than people. Hug a tree.9. Squirells find a mate and stick with them forever. Date a squirell. 10. You aren't going to live forever, however much you intend to11. Your mood changes with the people around you12. Your pillow doesn't (and can't) hug you back13. Warmth from your blankets don't reach your heart14. I have an evil plan to take over the world with hot penguins and dead trees.15. Heard of the phrase 'when pigs fly'? Heard of the brand 'air pork'?16. If looks could kill we'd be dead because of the all the better-looking people in our lives (how much would that suck?)17. Science is an attempt to understand the world, and it uses unnecessary big words to explain things we aren't meant to understand in the first place18. You're not single, you're just romantically challenged 19. You're not desperate, you think that dude is hot because you're trying to make the world look like a better place20. Explaining why you love someone is like staring into space: completely pointless and unfruitful21. Stars make you lonely.22. Space makes you feel small. (you ARE small) 23. When there's nothing to lose there's everything to gain24. Everyone needs a hug25. Romeo's a flirt and Juliet's desperate. (If you ever wondered why it's the best romance of all time)--I live off your smile, remember that
| so spoken! @ 3:03 AM|
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-third.-
It's amazing how free I am this holiday while everyone is at camp. Planning to collect pictures from all over the place, all my friends' past, present, yada yada. Imagine if I develop them all, place them in pretty photoalbums all over the place...
| so spoken! @ 1:06 AM|
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
-oldddd.-
Looked at my very old webpage and almost died. But then again it makes me feel like doing one more just for the heck of it.
For profile. Picture. Something like a mini-diary, you know. Hmm. Maybe I will.
| so spoken! @ 4:53 PM|
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-minor edits-
Doing some minor edits to template, if you're sharp enough you'll see some of it.
Listened to the Power98 top10 last night and I couldn't believe my ears. Some of the songs are just... I mean, what is it with the returning old-school type music? Not that it's all that bad, but in the top ten? Just what happened to Singapore's taste in music?!
| so spoken! @ 3:10 PM|
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Monday, March 12, 2007
-and-- POOF.-
6am this morning, while majority of the sec3 level was awake and eating breakfast, bleary-eyed and dazed, I slept in my comfortable bed dreaming of birds singing in the trees and rabbits dancing in a ring. Okay fine, so I did have a bit of a nightmare. No birds, no rabbits, but still.
And now I'm watching Deathnote while they are all at camp, or maybe not yet, I wouldn't know. Maybe they're in school still.
I'm marvelling at the genius of Deathnote. I mean, come on, how does one guy come up with all this crap? It's like Angels and Demons, or the DaVinci code. You just don't get it until you get to the end.
Tpoic-less post, really.
| so spoken! @ 1:12 PM|
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
-late2-
I don't know what made me write that post and publish it. Maybe it was a slip of my mind. A patch of oblivion. Or maybe it was the late-ness of it all. It was 1 in the morning after all. For those of you who saw it, I'm sorry you had to.
Anyway. Tomorrow the holidays officially start.
The days and hours stretch before me like some weird road.
| so spoken! @ 9:30 PM|
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Friday, March 09, 2007
-resultssss.-
Results.
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english - b3
chinese - c5
maths - b3
science - b3
geography - a1
f&n - a1
comb.humans - b3
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Average: 68% (crud.)
Class position: 3/44 (which, seeing as how my class is so far, is not exactly a consolation)
Remarks: Bernice is a pleasant student. She does her work deligently but should be more focused in class.
[focused = stop looking out the damn window, i don't care WHATs going on down there]
Passed chinese when half the class failed. Quite happy overall, but I've got a 68% average. Just eat me.
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Lost debate to Deyi Sec (who brought millions of supporters, and who all clapped so loudly I went out with my eardrums severely damaged) and one of our teachers said 'Just shooot me' when asked to eat more apparently self-mutilating potatoes.
fun at its purest, most unadulterated (:
| so spoken! @ 11:34 PM|
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Thursday, March 08, 2007
-PASSE-
I PASSED CHINESE!
Failed test by 1 mark, failed 2/3 tingxies and
yet.
Thank God for small favours.
Debate tomorrow. Though I did not contribute at all to this round... I'll be going anyway. What, you thought I was going to miss out on all that fun? (:
| so spoken! @ 7:07 PM|
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
-longagopict-
Pictures from the long-ago of the concert in Kebun Baruh what, 2 weeks ago? Was given a Male-S size shirt. Way too big. Am holding the label like a convict.
(:
| so spoken! @ 5:21 PM|
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My blog (though quiet) has always been one of the things I look forward to when I end school.
1) Eat!
2) Play with rabbits
3) Listen music
4) Look at blog
5) MSN
6) Drake & Josh
7) Read
8) Be bernice
It's one of the things in my life that makes me really happy to know I made it happen.
And there
fore (hint hint) I would be very very sad if my blog died.
| so spoken! @ 4:46 PM|
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
-(:-
New blog picture.....
Brush by
www.aragwen.comLyrics (big words) from Yellow by Coldplay
Small words taken from a poem done by me
Pagecurl courtesy of PPX
Otherwise 100% done by me (:
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Alfie - Lily Allen
(Added to list of favourite songs after Say It - Nelly)
Ooooo deary me,
My little brother's in his bedroom smoking weed,
I tell him he should get up cos it's nearly half past three
He can't be bothered cos he's high on THC.
I ask him very nicely if he'd like a cup of tea,
I can't even see him cos the room is so smoky,
Don't understand how one can watch so much TV,
My baby brother Alfie how I wish that you could see.
[Chorus]
Oooooo I only say it cos I care,
So please can you stop pulling my hair.
Now, now there's no need to swear,
Please don't despair my dear Mon frere.
Ooooo Alfie get up it's a brand new day,
I just cant sit back and watch you waste your life away
You need to get a job because the bills need to get paid.
Get off your lazy arse,
Alfie please use your brain
Surely there's some walls out there that you can go and spray,
I'm feeling guilty for leading you astray,
Now how the hell do you ever expect that you'll get laid,
When all you do is stay and play on your computer games?
[Chorus]
Oh little brother please refrain from doing that,
I'm trying to help you out so can you stop being a twerp.
It's time that you and I sat down and had a little chat,
And look me in the eyes take off that stupid fitted cap.
[Chorus]
Please don't despair
Please don't despair
Mon frere
| so spoken! @ 10:14 PM|
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Friday, March 02, 2007
-rain!-
On one hand, you see me, leaving my phone in the car, and so grabbing my slippers, umbrella and carkey to run downstairs yet again. I will find the slippers way too slippery and so hold it in my hands while walking barefoot along the corridor. I will go downstairs and discover I have picked a lardy old umbrella which has long not been working. Which is to say, impossible to open up. I will put my slippers back on and run to the car to get my phone.
On the other hand.
You see a crazy girl running in the rain with an umbrella but who prefers not to use it and let it cramp her style instead. You see a drenched, soaking girl holding an umbrella and a pair of slippers, walking barefoot along the corridor.
Things really suck when you put things into context.
| so spoken! @ 5:14 PM|
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