I'm getting over like I knew that I would I'm feeling older than a younger man should But one of these days i'll finally make good And hide another mistake
This is a model tongue This is the start of what's already done This is the part that you eat when there's nowhere to turn -the 88
Prfft. Don't think I'll be blogging until the end of exams. Wish me luck. I'mgonna need it.
| so spoken! @ 10:56 PM|
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Tuesday, September 25, 2007
-happy birthday to me!-
A big thankyou to everyone who wished me a happy birthday and gave me presents [:
Been wasting time on some of these tonight:
You Are A Blue Girl
Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.
You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.
If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.
You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.
10. "Ma is as selfless as I am" can be read the same way backwards. If you take away all the spaces you can see that all the letters can be spelled out both ways. 9. "One thousand" contains the letter A, but none of the words from one to nine hundred ninety-nine has an A. 8. A Chicago law forbids eating in a place that is on fire. (My house is on fire. I better eat everything right now so they don't go to waste) 7. 22,000 checks will be deducted from the wrong bank accounts in the next hour. 6. 259200 people die every day. (And I'm sitting in school doing nothing about the starving kids in Australia) 5. 27% of U.S. male college students believe life is "a meaningless existential hell." 4. 85% of men who die of heartattacks during intercourse, are found to have been cheating on their wives. 3. A Baboon called "Jackie" became a private in the South African army in World War I. 2. A bowling pin only needs to tilt 7.5 degrees to fall. (No wonder I suck at it) 1. A fly hums in the middle octave, key F
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Obscure (yet somewhat hilarious) laws.
Washington: 1. All lollipops are banned. 2. People may not buy a mattress on Sunday. 3. You need a license to sell condoms in Washington state. Texas: 1. A recently passed anticrime law requires criminals to give their victims 24 hours notice, either orally or in writing, and to explain the nature of the crime to be committed. 2. In Kingsville, there is a law against two pigs having sex on the city's airport property. 3. It is illegal to milk another person's cow. 4. It is legal to commit a homicide as long as you tell the person when, and how you are going to kill them. 5. In Texas, sixteen-year old divorced girls are prohibited from talking about sex during high school extracurricular activities. Vermont: 1. It is illegal to tie a giraffe to a telephone pole. 2. In Vermont It's against the law (not to mention impossible) to whistle under water. 3. Lawmakers made it obligatory for everybody to take at least one bath each week - on Saturday night.
I wonder if we have some funny law like this we don't know of. Like 'it is illegal to feed ants on a Sunday night' or 'it is illegal to sing Hallelujah in the evenings'.
| so spoken! @ 4:31 PM|
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-nthng to display-
So tired of hiding So tired of trying So tired, so exhausted Inside I'm just dying
So tired of numbness So tired of pain So tired, so exhausted Of walking this road in the rain
So tired of being scared Of the insecurity So tired, so exhausted I can never get enough sleep
Bury it all, beneath the earth Sweep it all under the hearth Once more I'll sleep good because it'll all come back again too soon
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Computer went out of memory(less that 100mb), which is quite a feat if you ask me. Started shutting down on its own in the middle of the day. Windows player, gone. MSN conversations, gone. Windows, gone. Notepad, gone. One by one. And then poof, shut down. Perrrfect.
Things are starting to go down the drain, too. Worse and worse. And I want to clap my hands over my ears and just friggin' sleep.
Sucks.
| so spoken! @ 3:52 PM|
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Sunday, September 09, 2007
-donut day [:-
[click to enlarge] "The school system is more of a test for being able to acquire knowledge than preparation for anything worthwhile." - quote from Nick
YESYESYES. i LOVE you. Hang on. Explain to me why I go to school again?
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Donut day! If only everyday could be half as fun. Ohman. Then school wouldn't worry me as much. One of the funnest parts of it was again, the lets-all-sit-around-and-talk-nonsense time, and the time we all sat down to watch the lightning.
Heh, I'm weird that way. So sue me.
The games weren't bad too. Even though I wish the sun wasn't so hard on us all. But ohwell, you can't have everything can you, and what we have is already pretty fly.
And damn, I don't have any pictures. ]:
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| so spoken! @ 9:44 PM|
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
-stupidity.-
Stupidest thing I ever said: "What part of don't jump out of the cage do you not understand?!"
| so spoken! @ 12:13 AM|
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
-LOAD OF CRUD.-
And like something acidic and rotten bubbling just beneath the surface, it's all coming back to eat away at my flesh once again.
I can see its hulking shadow lurking just around the corner, creeping round ready to pounce the moment I turn my back. And I'm scared. I'm so scared it's going to get me, like it's gotten me so many times before.
All I did was look around. But I don't see people. I see fragments. Because they all broke. Like little porcalain dolls left on the floor, like snowglobes left forgotten on the mantle, somehow, someway or other, they got smashed into a million tiny little pieces.
The monster got them, too, and now they're all broken.
And I'm going to break too. Into a million tiny pieces, just like them. And it's going to be so hard to find myself again. That out, I don't even know if I have or know myself in the first place.
I need help. I want a sense of normalcy in my life again. I know it's there. It's always been. And it's just out of reach.
I'm afraid. And I want answers, I demand answers. But I never get them. And I'm so scared that one day pieces and fragments will be what's left of me, and everyone around me. What then? What then?
I don't want to be broken, I'm scared. I don't want to be alone, I'm scared. And I don't want to go forward, because I'm scared.
If only there was a way to go back to being a kid. And most everyone was whole. And trust was so easy to give and take. And the school, the world, was still your friend.
Now the only escape is to be numb. To block it all out. To run so the monster can't get you, so it can't break you. To keep running and running.
But I can't see where I'm running, I'm exhausted, and I'm so freaking tired of the dark. And I don't know what I should do now. Either way, I'm going to break too. And I'm scared.
Tell me. What's a girl to do.
| so spoken! @ 11:00 PM|
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Sunday, September 02, 2007
-Youth Alive 07-
Better than YouthAlive06, hello YouthAlive07! (Despite its lack of light sticks)
| so spoken! @ 11:54 PM|
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-THE Banana-
Taken from Uli's blog! at http://www.blackpaperhearts.blogspot.com
----- Okay so does this remind you of something?In the future 10 years,Jo and Kay with their kid...
